Well, just sitting here doing my stuffs when this thought came to mind. I was thinking maybe I am wasting my time loving and teaching someone else's children. Many a time... I realized that my sincere love and care showered on this little one is being taken for granted. Many a time, I feel that the love is not reciprocated. And it hurts. Don't love me 100 percent, but give me some loyalty. That is what I want from it all...but am disappointed many times.
People who don't know my situation and what I am talking about, I apologize. Sooner or later, I realized, the little one will be taken away from me. As it is, her absence is getting more and more frequent. There is a big part of me that is treating her as my very own. But a little part of me realize that she is not truly mine. It gets depressing sometimes...no loyalty, not appreciated.
Now a plea to those who understand. Give me one of my own. So I can shower all my love and care on the precious one. When I say my own, I don't mean "my" own. Well, you know what I mean. At least the precious one won't be loving me one minute and treating me like a stranger another minute. And my effort of teaching and training will not be wasted.
Plus I get to hear him or her call me grandma. That will be a dream come true.
